Life is what you make it

Over the past 10 months I have learned a lot about myself, my family, my friends and life in general. Its amazing how you can think you know someone or some thing and then it turns out not to be what you once thought. As the time has passed, I'm learning how to take things day by day and for what they are. I can't control everything, I don't want to control everything. All I simply want is to be happy, have my children happy, be open and honesty, strengthen my faith in God, teach my children about God, and just enjoy life. This blog is normally happy, cheery and focused on my kids. But we all know that isn't how life really is. So I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and opening up, venting about life, and just being real. If you don't like it, don't read it. If you don't agree with it, thats ok. We are different people with different feelings, views, etc. If you want to talk about it, lets!

One of the biggest things that is making me think is the series we are in at church. Its about examining the type of friends you surround yourself with and what you choose to portray to people through social media. I'll admit that I have both good and bad friends. I have some that lift me up and are there for me through everything and are helping me deepen my faith, while I have others who are just there. I can also say that I am 100% guilty of participating in the snipits of life through social media. I can control what I put out there by only putting what I want. Not a terribly big deal, but at times it does portray what you want it too. That's why I really want to just open up and not neccesarily make myself vulnerable but to deal with things and work through them openly.

My life pretty much revolves around my children and work. I have my kids most of the time and there's nothing in the world that makes me happier. To hear them giggle, to kiss them, to exchange I love you's, to sit on the living room floor and read books, absolutely NOTHING makes me happier. Don't get me wrong, there are times when I want to shoot myself because they are driving me freaking crazy, but its my life. Kayden is growing up to be a sweet little man. He is a great mixture of his daddy and me and he still has his own personality. Emery is starting to show her personality. I think she is going to be a little shyer than Kayden, but who knows. There is still a long way to go.

MY WORLD

When I'm not with my kids, I'm pretty much at work. I love my job. Right now there are some changes going on within city hall, which make me hate working for a city municipality. However my co-workers are becoming like family. It's taken me years to finally find my niche, and now that I've found it, I'm not sure I want to leave. I could honestly see myself here for 10 more years. I never thought I'd say that. Its nice to feel connected and to have the support I do. As overwhelming as my job duties can be, I'm glad that I have a full support system here and am very thankful.

I've also been blessed with finding a few close friends. I don't think I would have made it this far without them. There are others who aren't as physically close, but I'll let that slide ;)
And then there is my family. We've never been a super close family, but through the years, the distance, the hard times we have formed a bond that is truly breathtaking. I am a lucky person to have the sisters, parents and brother that I do. I love them soooooo much!

There's a lot I just don't know right now. Things at work are difficult, being so far away from family is tough, being a single parent is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, things with Brett are up and down, and just life in general can be hard. There are days when I feel like I have it all under control and there are days when everything seems to crash and burn and all I can do is cry. I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. I change my mind. I'm human. I'm me. I hope to open up more. It'll take some time, but I believe we can all learn from each other and help each other when we least expect it.
Love you all. xoxoxo

Crazy Busy Week

Kayden has been up and down this week. I know its all part of being 3 and a boy, but sometimes he just wears me out and bedtime can't come soon enough. Thankfully he's sweet and his kisses melt my heart. Last week he started saying "you're my best friend" and it is the CUTEST thing ever!

You're my best friend

 

not sure why he did it....silly boy

visiting the goats at mommy's work

Emery is proving to be a strong willed little girl. She hates the pureed baby food. Its almost worth not even buying it. However I am finding that she loves solid food. Last night she enjoyed some steamed peas and pasta. She has also figured out that she can get up on all fours. She doesn't last for long, but that just means crawling is coming soon! Papa...I'm going to need you to get those baby gates down from my attic.

yummy toes

monkey or baby???

 

playing with food

Last weekend we decided to go to the state fair as a family. It was fun! E just chilled in the stroller most of the time. Brett and I were there for the food, and Kayden just wanted to play games! We realized very quickly which games he could play the longest for the cheapest. It doesn't take much to entertain this kid. He left with a minion, a whale, a dog and 2 little bears.

ring toss

E and her new bear

playing with daddy

 

 

Sweet miss Emery

When I'm not chasing around a crazy 3 year old, I'm snuggling this adorable baby! I can't get enough snuggle time. And yes, I put her down when I need to get things done around the house, but I'd prefer to snuggle.

Emery changes constantly. She is a sweet snuggly baby but she's also growing up rather quickly. She can now roll over, she chews on literally everything (pretty sure teeth are on their way), hates baby food, loves table food, sweetest giggle, adorable smile, kinda shy, just a precious little baby.

She had her 6 month check up yesterday.
Stats:
17lb 8oz - 75th percentile
26.5in - 75th percentile
Developmentally right on track

We are still working on sleeping through the night. She is only up once to eat, so its not terrible. She loves her brothers attention. When he's being silly she will follow him with her eyes and giggle. I'm sure one day they won't adore each other so until them I'm soaking it in.

hanging with brother

swinging with our friend Allie

I got my toes!

laughing at her brother

Eating some pizza

putting in a good word for the single Aunties ;)

 

eating bread

sweet snuggles

practicing sitting up

little laundry helper

 

Laundry helpers

 

playing outside

My sweet girl!

I could just squish those cheeks!!!

My main man Kayden

Kayden surprises me each and every day with his development, his personality and his sweetness. He is such an amazing little boy and I thank god that I was given the opportuntiy to be his mom.

School
He is learning more and more. His speech is becoming very clear and he is understanding how things work. He is doing great with sharing with his friends and playing with everyone. He knows everyone, but you can tell which ones are his best friends.
Last week they had a police officer visit and his teacher introduced him. She said, class this is a police offier. Kayden perks up and says, thats not my daddy. Lol. He's a cutie!

Personality
This kid has a quirky, individual little personality. He is sweet as can be, adores his little sister, is spoiled rotten, can throw the biggest fit and can turn around and melt my heart in .2 seconds. Everything a little 3 year old is supposed to be!

What else?
He's potty trained!!!!! Not over night, but I'll take what I can get! I didn't push him, it was all on his own schedule and it was perfect. I'm so proud of this kid!

Swinging like a goofball

pushing the babies in the swing

I took K to see his first movie. Disney's Planes! He LOVED it!

Playing at daddy's house

gelato

We visited the aquarium in Tulsa

He loves the fish :)

He decided to put stickers on his face. I didn't ask. Just took a picture.

Crazy kid.

How can you not adore this face?!?!?!?!!!!

Someone got new shoes!!!

Police cars and firetrucks!

SOOOOOO COOL!

And this is how we normally look. No pants. And the new shoes are super cool they are hard to take off.

 

Making sister giggle

We met up with our friend Jake at tailgate this weekend.

Go Pokes!

However this is my favorite face.

He's such a goofball and I absolutely ADORE him!!!!

Its a busy life....

Its been too busy to sit down and update a blog. But I'm trying!!! I'll post 3 updates, one for each of us. Hopefully by Friday. But here is a little picture of my beautiful babies!

 

I am so incredibly lucky to be their mommy!!!!